(just a mini brain dump)
re: what to say/speak/express
what is of the highest good?
i have constrained expression
out of my big heart
to love parents/family
so as not to worry them
so as not to pain them
solution: express w/o putting it in their face
or talking to them about it
e.g. the nudity
basically, have not been able to help myself
am made to fully express
i’m aware it’s where my greatest gifts lie
it is here, now:
how much/what to write in caringbridge that mom is reading
not wanting to invite
mom’s worry & anxiety (useless for her and me)
and not my job to ‘protect’ her
though i’m also protecting my field from un-welcome/invited advice, worry, energy, etc.
not speaking re: supplements
b/c SIL might be reading
and i trust her love/care & that she won’t impose her will
just tell me:
we usually recommend no supplementation
medical oncologist recommends
glutamine
M. B. recommends supplementation and no glutamine
which path?
my body, my health, my choice?
never clearcut
M. B. is caucasian but represents TCM from my ethnic lineage
wonder what mom & dad would think of that or if they have any trust of it.
Divine Eye 