who to speak to when i feel this way?
like a bug beating against the walls of a glass jar, stuck.
surfed FB too long
so many of my friends, peers, colleagues from film school days are now, 15 years after film school, established in their fields. still active. still in touch w/each other. having won multiple academy/emmy awards.
why am i not part of that?
spending my hours doing what i’m doing?
what would i want to be doing besides this?
today i am planning to make salt-dough holiday ornaments w/anja & her friend.
why am i doing this and not something more ‘great’
more my voice?
or is this it? my voice?
i guess this blog that few read is a good place for these sorts of purges.